Detox To Retox: the man v. the underdog
the man v. the underdog
Sarcasm is wonderful. When the man has robbed the underdog of all his power, the underdog still can talk shit to take the man down.
I was an underdog my entire life. So I was always a sarcastic asshole. Because, in all honesty: everyone I’d met was full of shit.
And so I spread my gospel.
And then my brothers and sisters supported me.
And now I can eat
And thus I can make a living doing what I love.
And hence that is a blessing.
But now i am no longer the underdog.
And if I were to continue being an asshole, I’d just be a fucking bully. Because if you’ve made it (at least “made it” enough to where you don’t have to worry about where your next meal is coming from, or worry about how you’re going to pay your rent), and you’re still sarcastic, you’re just a dickhead bully.
And I was fucked by bully’s my whole life. And that’s the last thing I ever want to do; become what I hate.
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So this is me, hanging up my asshole hat; this is me being thankful and gracious for everything I’ve been blessed with; and doing my best to be a kind person.
I’ve always been scared to be “nice” or “kind” because I’ve been fucked in the ass so many times. And I don’t ever want to get fucked again (better to do the fucking than to get fucked, right? :p ).
But I’ve got so much love and support out in the world right now, that there isn’t really a way I can get fucked.
Too many people have my back, and no one thinks I’m weak — so I need to stop trying to show the world how strong I am — no one doubts that.
The only thing I need to do now is be a kind person. A generous person; a loving person.
So from here on out, I will do my best to shed this callous skin that has protected me. And I will wear my heart on my sleeve, because no one can fuck with me anymore.
One love.
(In case you were wondering, yes, I am writing this while I’m drunk out a club. Disco=Transcendence )
Bravo. I aspire to do that once i get there =-D.
